Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Okay! Did it! 'Forbidden love' is officially a success!
It was staged today.. Got to get it all off me before I can sit down and do work.

The audience loved it. From Rohit's first word to Vall's last, they were laughing, cheering and "awww-ing" all the way. Everyone was on a roll. Even me. Lydia, co-star of 'Forbidden love'. I mean, have you ever met an audience that's so enthusiastic they refuse to leave the theatre during the interval? Yeah. We skipped the interval because they were just stuck on their seats. haha.

And well.now I'm off it. The roll I mean.
You know how during happening parties we all let ourselves loose and "liberate" ourselves? And how, the next day, we look back and we're like, "ugh! I can't believe I was so bimbotic!"
I kind of feel like that.

For the opening act, Lydia wore a short little flimsy pink skirt that covered all but revealed everything. During the 'sari scene', she was so loud she was larger than life. In the final change, she sauntered down the entire theatre in a skimpy brown chaos top and a tiny leather skirt.

[a] girly
[b] bimbotic
[c] sexy

I'm not lydia!
I don't know why I'm reacting so strongly to this show. As nat said, "it's professionalism!" After all, it's not like I'm like that in real life. For some reason, that is the whole point.
Sigmund Freud would say that this is because I'm too inhibited and that lydia is my repressed self. Then he would say that lydia is my repressed self because I feel that [a] [b] and [c] are for some reason that could be unknown even to me, wrong. Therefore when I unleash my repressed self, I get disgusted. What do you think? [posties: this is a rethorical question]

I don't know. I mean, I don't like it when I see people acting cute [acting cute is not equal to sweet] and I'm uncomfortable with blatent in-your-face attitudes that flaunt the body. I think I'm just this girl who makes stupid jokes and fuax pas , like burping right out and playing with my food. I'm fine with my ultra tanned limbs and yeah, so what if my face turns red whenever I get excited? That's my theory anyway. That I'm feeling this way because I was being someone who I'm not and all this acting got to me. That's how it is in real life anyway, isn't it? That when we try to be who we aren't, it's tiring and a waste of time.

Yay, got it off me. (: It's now time to do work.

3 comments:

  1. freud was an psychoanalyst of dreams. and an anti-feminist. so chances are that wouldn't be what he would have said, if that is, he would even analyse it.

    friendly info.

    your letter is coming. =D

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  2. when i think of freud, i think of...

    a)sex.
    b)escapism.

    haha, the coping mechanisms and all. im bored. glad the play went well tho and i dont think that being girly/sexy is wrong. i dont think marilyn monroe's mistake was being sexy and girly. sigh i feel sad talking about her. anyway, im really rambling here. goodnight!

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  3. hello rach! I hope u don't mind that i took a peek at ur blog.. stumbled upon it cos it's linked to qh's. Nice blog u have here.. I like reading it.
    And I think you did GREAT. You dance really well too! Secret weapons galore eh. Hehheh. =)

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